How do you know who your soulmate is?
I love being in love; always have. I am forever a boyfriend girl. I am never going to break the habit…but why should I have to? Single people hate being single, most of them anyway. There are some die hard single believers. But thats not me. There is someone out there for me, I think I know who it is…but do I feel that way because I miss him and havent seen him in many many months or do I really feel this cellular deep connection that I have never felt about any other guy before? This woulnt be so difficult if this guy was my current boyfriend. I ALWAYS do this to myself. I have a perfect…somewhat perfect relationship, with a guy I love and do not have any problems with; no fights, no yelling, no jealousy, no anger, nothing. So why is it that when everything is perfect I always self-destruct? I Do this in every relationship, ruin something good for something els; and when I do I hurt people, I hurt myself, and I create misery. I hate this about myself, I cant stop. I question my feelings, when I have no reason to question at all. If i ruin my relationship again and persue this feeling of mine, will I end up doing the same to him? The question of soulmates…maybe I keep doing this because I havent found mine yet. How long till I know? Will I ever? I do not think it is an age thing. No matter how much older I get I never learn and I dont think when I am 20 I will have figured anything else out. I am forever this; and all I can do now is wait, but what if he wants me now? Should I risk leaving someone I love for the possibility that he is my soulmate? I may never know…till its too late. </3
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